Random Thoughts

You know how there are those times in life when you are asked to describe yourself? Maybe it was an “All About Me” essay in the UPSR exam or perhaps a job made you do a lengthy self-assessment.. Either way, almost all of us will agree that describing yourself is pretty much sucks...We’re always our harshest critic.. It’s also strange when someone else describes you…the “spotlight” feeling is not fun for people who are not actually dancing on a Broadway stage... The older I get, the more I fantasize about being a hermit...Nay' I guess I could never ever be a hermit, I like to be among people, and I love socializing..although, there might be times when the moon is blue, I prefer to be in solitude..but that doesn't happen all the time...

Today someone who is new in our office asked me..So you have no class today aa?..I said..Nope, I've done with all my subjects..and he continued..You're the most relax and free lecturer here..Was that suppose to be a compliment or....You need a slap? or..have you eaten any shoes before?...Seriously, sometimes I can't tell if someone is joking or just plain irritating...Well, I guess, this person is irritating..Definitely he is...

I don’t consider myself to be relax or laid back at all..(even if I am...)..I have a horrible time relaxing, I’m always thinking..(place the empty water glass on the kitchen sink instead of the table, at which point I will scrub out the pots and pans and let them dry on the half-clean towel and grab that on my way up to do the laundry…well, sometimes..hehe) ..When I come home everyday, I will first let the dogs out, clean the house..feed them, and play with them..and it’s exhausting..Not that I'm complaining..I love the dogs, more than anything else..and cleaning the house is routine..I'm use to it.. But I thought about what my life must look like to someone on the outside…Hemm...I've decided not to even care about that la..It's a waste of my precious time...

I always have this in my, that the next big thing is always better than the last, especially if you know it before it happens...Which basically means that you better have lots of faith that it will work out..And if you do, it will.. The things that go wrong in life are often wrong only temporarily, and they needed to go wrong in order to properly rearrange the events that are waiting for you, which is just around the corner...Finger crossed.. You have to be paying attention to see them though, and you have to expect them... If you’re expecting the wrong things, your eyes won’t be adjusted to be able to see the right ones.. Ya..bla bla bla bla..I'm starting to sound like my mother while she is cleaning the house..I wonder why they (mothers) could not do their cores in silence...emmm...

I think too much..that's why I've never get anything straight..maybe it's lack of sex that bringing me down...hehe...anyway, I'm tired..Let it be, let it be, let it be...Now I'm wondering..what is the next best thing for me???