Hamp telah men'tagged aku....

Sebelum saya buat ni tag, saya ingin mengucapkan ribuan terima kasih yang tidak terhingga kepada sahabat baik saya, Imhar a.k.a Hamp kerana telah men'tagged saya dengan sesuka hatinya..saya akan buat la tag ini dengan hati yang riang dan gembira sambil menyanyikan lagu jiwa, lagu cinta..yang si M.Nasir sama si Botak tu nyanyi...huahuahua..Ok hamp, Here I go...

~ Bold the statements that are true for you. Italicise the statements that you wish are true. Leave the fibs alone. Then, tag 5 people to do the same test~

I miss somebody right now.
I love vacation.
I bake a cake.
I do not watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I am married.
I have tried marijuana.
I still love with my ex-boyfriend/girlfriend.
I have been in a threesome.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I curse.
I’m totally smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I am a millionaire.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller ID.
I like the way I look
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I am a pretty good dancer.
I love sex. hhahhahahaa...yes
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I am not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I’m shy around members of the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I have tried alcohol before. ..are u crazy!!??
I own the South Park movie.
I would die for my best friend.
I love to chat (YM/MSN/etc..)
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I am happy at this moment.
I’m obsessed with girls.
I’m obsessed with boys.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I study for tests most of the time.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I went college out of state. ...out of Sabah..yesss
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I don’t know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake’s slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve written in.
I can’t stick to a diet. I talk in my sleep.
I wear a toe ring.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I have kids.
I feel sad sometimes.
I’m an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I am an adrenaline junkie.
I love being happy.
I am on diet.



Puas ati ko Hamp..? hehehe

just rambling...

It's all over now...the joy and fun in the sun, the loud musics, the tapai2, bir2 and all those strong liquors...they are no more...The food, ow..where are they?...The waking up late in the morning, and staying up late at night, and going to sleep early morning....It's all over now....As if I have just awakened from a long sleep and beautiful dream..or, it should be series of dreams...and now, I'm back to reality...back to what it has always been....Life...That's it...

Going to the office today seemed like taking the long way from Tambunan tu Sandakan, I could have sworn, the matress felt like...emm...the best matress in the world this morning...but, I have to wake up, I have things to do...I'm one responsible person if you don't already know....hehe..BUt, this is not always the case, I could be very irresponsible sometimes, but...yeah...depends...Seriously, there's nothing much to do in the office, when everything else has been settled long time ago....So, I have been in front of my lappy since the time I came in...now, my eyes are getting really tired...Was I asleep for few seconds just now? ughhh....Not getting enough sleep lately..but not tonight..Will be watching A.I first, feed my boys, and hit the sack like nobody's business....

Sometimes I get really sick and tired of my daily routines...get caught in the traffic jam and feeling extraordinarily sleepy while driving home after work...and the song "if I was a boy" by Beyonce....forgive me, if you like that song, coz..I can't seem to fine anything in the song, from the lyric to the melody...It's all wrong...

I need some changes, a betterment...something that I'm really excited to do, and always look forward to...I want so much, but I can't have them all...I need so much..but who am I to ask?...being human sucks sometimes...with our diversifying needs and wants compare to our very little means..we end up being no where..we stay where we are....We don't have much, but choices...and choosing could be so tiring and frustrating...If I could just point, and it's mine...would it secure me an everlasting happiness and satisfaction? If I could..only if...and, true...It's going to remain only if...

Maybe, I'll wake up tomorrow with some fresh new hopes...or maybe, I wake up tomorrow not seeing light at all..maybe and only if..they remain my best buddies....




To all my dear readers, since it's gonna be cuti2 again for few days, I, also would take my cuti2 from blogging for a while...will get back after the chinese new year...

Just a short and quick reminder to everyone, please be extra careful...Don't and never attempt to do anything stupid..such as, racing car with the policemen...If you're going back home (kampung), make sure your house has been locked, you might never know, Mr.Robber might be interested in your microwave...and if you have dog(s)...Don't be stupid to leave your dog(s) without any food and drinks...get someone to take care of them while you're gone...you're making a big mistake if you leave your dog unattended for a long duration of time....If I know, I'll shoot you in the head....hahaha..kidding...

Bah, sepa2 yg cina tu, and ada open house, don't forget to remember me...invite me la..I'm gonna be bored ni...hahaha...but, make sure got angpau one aa...hehehe...

K la...Slamat tahun baru.......Cina...

Random PIcs

sekadar tuk megisi masa lapang....hehe

what would you write...if

It was during one of my classes today that I was thrown up with this question...and seriously, I was left dumbfounded... If it was something in relation to my subject, then...I guess...I could give the student a long and winding explanation, complete with the theories and principles...but, it wasn't...Something that I have never even think about...

The question was....If you are the last human being on earth, and you have the opportunity to write something down, what would you say?....The question was that simple, and as a blogger who write on regular basis, I should be able to answer that question promptly..but, I can't...For the first time in my career of work, I was asked something that I couldn't answer satisfactorily...

While continuing with my teaching, I was a bit distracted, the question kept on playing in my mind...and I swear, I was trying to find the best answer while delivering my lessons and it was no piece of cake...

When I got back to the office, I was still trying to figure out what would I write down if I was the last human being on earth....It was such an inspirational question...and I can't wait to write my response here...Now, I'm imagining myself being the one and only person on earth...
When posed with the scenario of being the last member of humanity, and being asked to write something meaningful, I felt suddenly helpless and speechless...Since being speechless is an irregular occurrence for me, the question had a profound impact…

What is there really to say? Nothing I can put into words would have a significant amount of meaning at that point... I could narrate earth’s history to the best of my knowledge, but it wouldn’t change our fate... I could articulate my opinions and beliefs, but who would be saved by reading them? Who could possibly be influenced by what I had to say?..How much power does language really have? Well, it may seem like a lot, when there are others around to express yourself to... But in the end it will take more than written letters and symbols to change reality....

Okay, so maybe its a little raw and not my best thinking… but the former question really threw me off guard....and for sure, I won't be writing anything like this if I was the last human being on earth....

arrrgh!!!....I should just forget about the question, it won't happen anyway... (huhuhu)...

Letter to my Blog

My Dear Beloved Blog

I'm sorry that I don't visit you as often as I should have lately, let alone do some updating to your almost outdated features...I've been busy..Seriously I am..You could actually ask my good friends about that... I've been running up and down, coast to coast, south to north, East to West everyday, and I'm tired, sick and exhausted...that's how busy I am...I hope you could understand, and believe me...I love you still..Dearly and tenderly...Yesterday I came to visit you here, and...as usual, you looked so pale and blue...maybe, due to lack of activities...I left without saying anything..I do apologize for that...

Hey, you don't have to be sad, you don't have to be ashamed...you're as good as any other blogs out there...at least, you have some good pictures here, right?..and some people...don't have that....Did I cheer you up? well, you could at least smile...:)..I remember, we used to be together a lot last time..you're the first one I visited in the morning...and I stayed with you till late night...Things changed...You didn't, I did....and people are talking about that...Those people, who come here, dropped a line on your board, telling you that I don't love you anymore, and that I am a lazy person..just because I don't come and visit you the way I used to...Don't listen to them..for they don't know what they are talking about..and for sure, they don't have anything better to do in life...Hehehehe...

The rain has stopped, and I'm glad..maybe I can go for a little walk with that fat boy Rex...he needs to lose weight...opss...talking about weight, you know what Dear Blog...I lose weight in less than a month...and I'm happy about that...Have I told you already that I'm going diving next month?...First in Cebu and then, we're off to Sipadan...emm, there seems to be a problem with our permit to Sipadan, but we're still trying..until we get the permit..It won't be as fantastic to dive in Mabul or Kapalai without diving in Sipadan...You know how much I love it there, right?...and, I wanna look good when I put on my wet suit..that flabby abs would look awful in that tight suit...hehehe..but, hey..I feel comfortable now..I don't miss that 5kgs at all...lalalala...

I think, I have introduced you with my new friend, EOS50D, right?...he's my partner in crime now...we always go out together, he's a good friend...Some of the pics I put on you were taken by him...Nice, right?...I think I'm in love with this 50D friend of mine...Yesterday we went to the briefing and rehearsal of the Miss Sabah Oriental 2009 in D-Junction..we took some good pictures of the contestants, and yeah...some of them require us to be their photographer during the event...this is great...and of course, all the pics will be featured here...and you, you will look better and alive again....So don't ever think that, I have abandoned you because I have a new friend now...Somehow...you two are closely related together...you two are good friends too...

I have said enough...i hope, you could just tell the visitors that you're still alive...and I am going to make you bright and be cheerful again...For the time being...just leave me alone with 50D...

yours sincerely
Random Thoughts

:) let me just laugh...hehehehehehehe

HDR lagi ni....

Sekadar main2 saja...daripada sa tidur di ofis, bagus sa buat something yg I love to do...hehehe

Higher Dynamic Range


If you consider yourself a good photographer, you should learn, and should know lots of skills to process your photos...one that is mostly talked about now is the HDR...emmm, I'm not really sure how to explain what HDR does to your pics, but...it can actually create or rather enhance your pics...I'm loving it, I got addicted to it...but of course, I'm still very much in my learning process....hehehe

From Deep Within....

It feels like I haven't been writing for ages...writing from deep within myself..and I'm missing it...So much is deep inside me which need, somehow...to be let lose for a while...If you're reading this...you're reading from the deepest part of me...

That’s what I got in my mouth after reading some of my writings here. I thought I was optimistic and well, maybe not happy happy, but contented…serene. Instead I found this fairly bitter, a depressing person writing under my name….How can that be? Granted, since I came, read and retreated to ponder, fester and just think, I’ve been low... Maybe it’s the anticlimax of the season... Or maybe this is how it works….you write something, and that what you hold to be the truth, turns out to be a mistake, at best, or fiction...

Or maybe it’s just plain old me, peaking out from behind that happy, contented mask... I lost my footing, but in doing so I also had to take stock of some more or less painful things. My going back to my bad habits is one, and although one can always blame ones surroundings it’s not honest, and if I can’t be honest with myself, then what? I will of course get a grip... That’s who I am, was fostered to be, but it’s so hard sometimes to be good, do good…all because of what? The eternal award? The knowledge of “being good”? I don’t know, but the road is somehow already mapped out. It doesn’t really matter how much I procrastinate, I’ll get to where I’m going in the end anyway, I know...

Life is of course a struggle... That’s a mantra that’s easy enough to say.. To feel it is another matter I’ve noticed... The struggle of the everyday life, the choices, the excuses…it’s tiresome... I sometimes wish for less awareness. Ouch! That came out just a bit too…..I don’t know what, but what I mean is that for every new insight there’s an added burden of responsibility... To know, or understand more is to have even more choices to make... I undertake my journey within the confines of a mind too easily swayed.. This sounds like an excuse perhaps, but really it isn’t. The struggle between doing right, and giving up, is a hard one, and lately I’ve seem to lose ground... Lose ground I write, as if there’s the “I” versus something else. Some external force, maybe? I think not. Rather I’ve a feeling that the “good” and the “bad” as it should be known, is within. So, I struggle with myself, and I win and I lose according to how my resolve is steadfast, or crumbling.

The end of last year turned out pretty much the same as the start of the new one. And why shouldn’t it?.. We tend to affix names or functions to different days, but in the long run every day’s more or less the same...I wish, I could be better this year...a wish I would love to keep to myself, but...he who knows, would rejoice with me when it turns out positive...I'm eager, not jumping, I'm waiting...with very little or maybe no patience at all...Somehow, I feel I'm strong..and I could survive for another year...

I was watching American Idol last season's finale last night..it was a long marathon actually..For the first time, I heard George Micheal sang his song "Praying for Time"..I guess, it goes well with my entry today...listen to the song in my playlist, as you scroll down and read the lyric...

Praying for time- by George Micheal

These are the days of the open hand
They will not be the last
Look around now
These are the days of the beggars and the choosers

This is the year of the hungry man
Whose place is in the past
Hand in hand with ignorance
And legitimate excuses

The rich declare themselves poor
And most of us are not sure
If we have too much
But we'll take our chances
'Cause God's stopped keeping score
I guess somewhere along the way
He must have let us all out to play
Turned his back and all God's children
Crept out the back door

And it's hard to love, there's so much to hate
Hanging on to hope
When there is no hope to speak of
And the wounded skies above say it's much, much too late
Well maybe we should all be praying for time

These are the days of the empty hand
Oh you hold on to what you can
And charity is a coat you wear twice a year

This is the year of the guilty man
Your television takes a stand
And you find that what was over there is over here

So you scream from behind your door
Say what's mine is mine and not yours
I may have too much but I'll take my chances
'Cause God's stopped keeping score
And you cling to the things they sold you
Did you cover your eyes when they told you
That he can't come back
'Cause he has no children to come back for

It's hard to love there's so much to hate
Hanging on to hope when there is no hope to speak of
And the wounded skies above say it's much too late
So maybe we should all be praying for time

Just Some Pics

Lalat in Action

Semoga hidup akan lebih ceria.....hehehe

First Entry

Hey, I'm back to blogging again after being soooooooo busy with my everything....yeah, you know what I mean....I don't actually have long holidays like some people..but....I had a good time..Hehehe..Today is the first day of college, and I'm not jumping up and down about it...I don't like new semester, especially now that our clock in and clock out time has been changed...We have to come earlier, and go home later....That sucks!!! Totally ridiculous....Argh...I shouldn't be complaining too much about it..I did sign the agreement...Danggg!!! Anyway, looking at our new students, I'm pretty sure that I'm gonna have fun teaching this semester....Yeah..Believe me, I'm just trying to make myself feel better....Pathetico..

2009 is still fresh, its only the 5th day today...There's one thing people always talk about when new year comes...but, how come I have never mention about it...Yet...how come I don't talk anything about my new resolution?...It's not that I don't have any..but, let me just keep it to myself...Last year, my resolution was to reduce my night outings especially during weekdays....and I think, I did well, infact I think...for the first time in history, I managed to achieve my resolution...Yeahhhhh......Don't get me wrong, I didn't say, I don't want to go out during the weekdays at all, right.... I feel so proud of myself, still...I don't think my parents are proud about it..hehehe....and, this will continue for another year this year....

I can see 2009 is a good year for me...For whatever reason, I have a strong feeling about that...Junior and I both love photography, and we have invested some handsome amount of money and started our own small business...Dirty Paw Event and Photography is moving slowly, but we're getting there...It's just a matter of time, and for the time being...I need to learn as much as possible about creative photography...read lots of books, magazines...Porn, eh...How come Porn??....Hahahaha, hey, you'll never know, someone might come and ask me to take his nude pics...Wakakakaka...Kidding...That one, I'll pass....(well, it depends...hehehehe)...

I have lots of pics taken in just few days time...and I'm running out of space to put them all, and I can't stop taking pics...I have this habit of keeping pics, even how ugly they are...I think, photos are not meant to be deleted, or thrown away...they need to be kept for remembrance....I hope, there's someone out there who can help me out with this, perhaps maybe you have better ideas...How to save my pics from destruction...hehehe

I'll post some pics later kio.....