Random Thoughts

There's nothing much to say, I've done packing up things..Watching tv is not entertaining at all..and I was feeling a bit hungry..Darn it..Trying to avoid myself from imagining food..and the saying "the will is strong yet the flesh is weak" has proven to be true once again..and I found myself, doing the mise en place for speghetti..at night?? Its 10.30..hehehe...

While preparing the ingredients I have accidentally dropped some minced beef on the floor, and Sisqo ran and ate it all...Rex must have been very mad, he raised his hackles, stood stiff and stare at Sisqo..and Sisqo did the same thing..I knew, a fight would likely happen..and it did...It was a long 20 minutes of fight..all I could do was, shouting at them to stop..but they didn't..When finally both male dominant dogs were tired, they stopped, stared at each other, and started licking each other's wounds...I was like...What!!! you two were in such a big fight, as if you were really gonna kill each other, and now you're licking each other like nothing has ever happened????

Ever since Bobbi died, Sisqo has been a little aggressive, or I should say, very aggressive especially lately..He wants to be the dominant male...and so Rex is too...they will fight over anything for at least once in a week..and whenever they fight, they will leave marks and bruises on each others..Now, both of them look ugly..yet still adorable though..hehehe...That's why I really have to get Sisqo neutered..I should have done this last month, but I just don't have the time..and sometimes I forget...HUhu..

One thing I noticed about them is that, they are so forgiving..they might be in a great fight, but few minutes later when the anger has subsided, they will be friends again..very good friends indeed..It's such a heartbreaking moment to see them fight like there's no tomorrow..coz, at the end, both will suffer injuries..The vet told us that they need to be separated to prevent more fights..Tell me how can I do that?? They are my sons...maybe, once Sisqo is neutered his temperament will tone down..His Rottweiler blood is too dominant...For the time being, sisqo is going to stay outside..and will only be allowed inside the house for his meals..Sad..its really sad...

I think I'm getting more and more vain each day..Not because I take more pics of myself..but, I'm trying to look like Piolo Pascual..Not the face..the body..Hehehe..Well, Not exactly like his body, but...emm..I think I would look better if I could lose some of these extra baggage that I've been carrying everywhere for the past..I don't know..how long....Huhuhu..Being very determined this time, I have cut down on carbs, and do some workouts..The past few weeks have shown me really fantastic result..Ok, don't get me wrong, I'm not planning to be the next Mr.Kaamatan (ughhhs...) I do this for health reason...

Yesterday I've commited crime..Was stuffing myself with food all day..our culinary students were having their practical exam, and we (lecturers) were the judges..I guess that was fine, coz I didn't eat that much though..and last night I thought I don't need any dinner since I already have lots during the day..but before 11, suddenly I felt an extreme feeling of hunger, and I craved for all sorts of food..I was contemplating on cooking or going out, then lastly I've decided to sleep it over..and ya, I have this complete orchestera playing continuously in my stomach all night..Hehehe..


I know, I'm not doing it right..but it works anyhow..so, I guess..I can do it..hehe..Well, I won't be around for weekends this time..We will be away in Mabul, Bohey Dulang and Sipadan...I've been packing up since Monday, just to make sure that I won't leave anything behind...and I hope everything will be fine and in order..Emmm..Who's going to send me to the airport tomorrow??..

HAPPY MERDEKA DAY to all Malaysian..and enjoy some more pics here...hehe...(Gila la kamurang ni tingu gambar2 ja...Kotoh...hehehe)..We played badminton last Tuesday...ni la gambar2 dia..

Huh..gaya tu bah..pastu out plak tu kan Dong..hehe

Yang paling hebat dan begaya tu malam..Mamai juga la

Ni pun sama juga..hebat dan begaya juga..Baru kiri2 ja lagi tu..hehe

Barisan pemain handalan..smua hebat2...

makanan si Cel and Tompok...
Makanan si Mamai
Gidong yg gundoot..Smua makanan org dia mau makan
Sa makan asap ja..diet kan..hahaha

and then, lepas makan..sa ingat buli balik..tau2...Oleng2 lagi..sikijap ja la..hehehe

That's all..I'll be back with more posts after I come back from the islands...

wow..I have more than 500 pics in my handphone..I was like..Man..alot la..This is what I love so much about phone with camera..I can take pics anytime, anywhere...But, some of the pics need to be transfered to another place..My handphone's memory stick can't keep them all anymore...

..I always wanted a phone with a camera, but I don't have the luxury like most people do..I envied those who have phone with camera..huhu..and 2 years ago..Someone just came to me and gave me one brand new sony Ericson..Hehee...Thanks aa...Call me vain, that's what I am..I take pics of myself while driving, eating, taking bath..kidding...hehe..well, basically..I take lots of pics..and when I look back at all the pics, they remind me of pond memories of the past...Let me share you some of them ya...kamurang enjoy ja la my pics, if you don't enjoy it..have the courtesy la to say..."I enjoy them"..ok...hehehe..Come on la be nice sikit..hehe..

You know how there are those times in life when you are asked to describe yourself? Maybe it was an “All About Me” essay in the UPSR exam or perhaps a job made you do a lengthy self-assessment.. Either way, almost all of us will agree that describing yourself is pretty much sucks...We’re always our harshest critic.. It’s also strange when someone else describes you…the “spotlight” feeling is not fun for people who are not actually dancing on a Broadway stage... The older I get, the more I fantasize about being a hermit...Nay' I guess I could never ever be a hermit, I like to be among people, and I love socializing..although, there might be times when the moon is blue, I prefer to be in solitude..but that doesn't happen all the time...

Today someone who is new in our office asked me..So you have no class today aa?..I said..Nope, I've done with all my subjects..and he continued..You're the most relax and free lecturer here..Was that suppose to be a compliment or....You need a slap? or..have you eaten any shoes before?...Seriously, sometimes I can't tell if someone is joking or just plain irritating...Well, I guess, this person is irritating..Definitely he is...

I don’t consider myself to be relax or laid back at all..(even if I am...)..I have a horrible time relaxing, I’m always thinking..(place the empty water glass on the kitchen sink instead of the table, at which point I will scrub out the pots and pans and let them dry on the half-clean towel and grab that on my way up to do the laundry…well, sometimes..hehe) ..When I come home everyday, I will first let the dogs out, clean the house..feed them, and play with them..and it’s exhausting..Not that I'm complaining..I love the dogs, more than anything else..and cleaning the house is routine..I'm use to it.. But I thought about what my life must look like to someone on the outside…Hemm...I've decided not to even care about that la..It's a waste of my precious time...

I always have this in my, that the next big thing is always better than the last, especially if you know it before it happens...Which basically means that you better have lots of faith that it will work out..And if you do, it will.. The things that go wrong in life are often wrong only temporarily, and they needed to go wrong in order to properly rearrange the events that are waiting for you, which is just around the corner...Finger crossed.. You have to be paying attention to see them though, and you have to expect them... If you’re expecting the wrong things, your eyes won’t be adjusted to be able to see the right ones.. Ya..bla bla bla bla..I'm starting to sound like my mother while she is cleaning the house..I wonder why they (mothers) could not do their cores in silence...emmm...

I think too much..that's why I've never get anything straight..maybe it's lack of sex that bringing me down...hehe...anyway, I'm tired..Let it be, let it be, let it be...Now I'm wondering..what is the next best thing for me???

Photography has always been my passion..I love taking pictures of everything..People (friends), animals, moving cars, buildings..you name it..Today I brought a camera to the office..Canon EOS350..The reason being..I'm buying a new flash from my friend..and I wanna try to put it on mine if it can be used...Well, confirmed..the flash is mine..but not until end of this month coz he wants to use it on my friend's wedding this Saturday..Hehehe..Lucky you my friend, you're gonna have 4 amateur photographers on your wedding..Hehe..

Some pics I took this morning..These are totally random..

The view from my office..I took it from the verandah..

Shen? Anyone..?...Ughh..I stop going the since long ago...

The Summer Lodge..I love my lense..I can zoom in to get a clear view of something in 200m of distance..

The Borneo Backpackers..I love going out to the verandah in the morning, coz you can actually see topless white chicks sunbathing..or if you're unlucky fat old woman...hahaha...

The not so new lecturers in our department..Ms.Adwina and Ms.Ruhaidah...

Yeah..tu ja la gambar2 sa tuk ari ni..Len kali lagi la..hehe

Have a nice day ya...

Today I have British Training Education Centre seminar for one whole day...I'm sure I'm not gonna enjoy it..Seriously, I don't like attending seminar like this..It's too boring and it's too serious...I wish I could be exempted in the last minute...I prefer to have full day class rather than to be inside a classroom listening to some boring lectures...Well, hope the speaker is a good one..

Good morning all, and do have a nice day today ya...

Every so often, in our life there will be a little period where you make a breakthrough.. or take off in a slightly different direction that feels good and right at the time... Sometimes you will find yourself at the end of that small leg of the journey, turn around to catch your breath and realise you are further than you thought you’d be..When vertigo sets in, the anxiety and feelings mount up..You try to work it out and to your dismay..Everything looks just crap..

The ‘unloveliness’ is valuable because it makes you work harder, try harder, climb further, and it is in fact a blessing, this dissatisfaction we may call it.. because it is a glass that helps you realize how far you have in fact come..

Having spent the last 2 days on my exam papers and teaching files..MOST horrible, and being unable to get anything done is frustrating and crushing... Temporarily crushing. I’ll be over it tomorrow, but for today I would just like to curl up in the sunshine and wait for my new wings to fully uncurl..Coz for now, I'm temporarily hibernating..

Well tomorrow I’ll give it another go. Or maybe tonight. I am so impatient….and I seem to be thinking too much...emm...

Last Saturday we had a small bbq, potluck and birthday party for our friend..Thanks to all for coming...Now, this would be nothing, but pics...Enjoy ya..Everything is decent here, if you would like to see the rest...em..Buli runding bah...hehehe