Random Thoughts

Until now, I never really understood what it meant to live blissfully..How does it really feel?.. However, due to a few strategic decisions I have made in the past six months, the result is I have been ushered into the land of “Bliss.” To me it means being carefree and filled with anticipation of nothing but good, wholeness, joy and love... It means keeping my arms wide open to receive as well as to give all that I can possibly give knowing that what I give is coming back soon and very soon...

I have new feelings and a new way of living.. In fact, I wake up with joy and lay down with joy every single day... My dreams are now my life.. I am glowing, I am laughing louder and deeper, I am not afraid to ask, make bold request and verbally with love let others know that I care.. I am in a place where there is nothing missing or broken.. I am bliss-full and everything in my space must be and will be filled with bliss...

Life is a journey for all of us. Some of us have a clear plan and idea of where we're going and what we want to achieve. Others take each day as it comes, no structure, just seeing what opportunities present themselves and whether to take them or not. Whatever path you're on, why don't you try? To live more blissfully...

Wishing you happiness, abundance and everything you hope for in life....

Grudges and moments of stress are so hard to let go, they are hard things to pass off and just forget ever existed... I want to be self encouraging to let go when its not going to matter in, say 20 minutes... I want to teach myself that life does not have to be difficult to be amazing... It does not have to be hard, or a struggle... I am blessed with the things in my life that I do have and when yucky things happen, I need inspiration to not have to think about it anymore..

I need to remember that i will not always get an answer or explanation for things that happen in my life...sometimes things just don’t make sense immediately or ever...I let go of my hate.. It’s too tiring, and I was hurting the people I love...I needed to stop living in the past and start living in the present...

I'm going to try and do a little writing right now before I hit the sack tonight...I have not been really writing..ever since...emm..Hell, I don't know why I don't write that much anymore...I realized it, and it disturbs me..the only reason I started blogging in the first place was due to my love for writings...Even though I actually suck in this...Heck!! So you think you can judge me?? Nope..my life, my business...Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to be rude here..Or maybe I am..maybe this is only one of the phases in my life that I think my personal life is all that matters to me...

KK has been rainy and haily these days so I'm not in a good mood..(a perfect excuse to be mad for no specific reason..) I don't know what suddenly got into me...The hiatus could have been my failure to change my blog layout...Hahaha (oooh, so now I'm laughing again...I really think I'm gonna be admitted to an asylum for such a stupid reason..)

I have been trying to give my blog a new look, and I have been working on it since this afternoon, I gave up..when suddenly everything went missing..and it took me a long while to retrieve everything back to their normal setting (I'm seriously laughing at how shallow my knowledge about these html or xml thingy..When I finally managed to get everything into normal position, I made a promise to myself, that I will never want to change my layout anymore...Unless...emmm...Unless...someone is willing to do it for me..ahaksss!!! not that I got sick and tired of the old one, but..I guess, it would be nicer if I could change the layout once in a while (I was thinking of changing it every once in 3 months..hahaha)..Why? so that I could be more encouraged to write? nope..so that people will come and visit my blog more often..again nope...Simply because I love changes...I'm not the kind of guy who gets bored easily...I could live forever with what ever I have..and seldom find myself complaining...Seriously, I don't have much to complain about everything...It's just a little changes that I love to see..

Or maybe...I'm just being jealous of some blogger's layouts...they are cool..and I want to be just like them..I mean, my blog to have something like their's...I don't know where this is going, and I don't know why I am being so possessed with having a new layout...??? I just really wanted to rant about this over and over again...I feel better now..At least I'm making a pact with myself right now...

If I am ever possessed enough to have my layout changed, it is going to be something interactive..and I will put on the header "READMEMORE"..Then everyone will feel the obligation...(aha...so, it's actually my vanity speaking again...aha...kidding)...I could care less or care nothing if no one is coming here to read...my life would not be affected..not a little..not at all...Anyway, thanks for dropping by here...I do appreciate it...


matulog pa ako..inaantok ako talaga ee....bukas pa aa....

Love is all of those things that I spoke of in one of my earlier blogs.

But I will say this again, even though it is not Valentine's Day yet….To have so much love in your heart and no one to give it to can turn into toxic and harmful thing... It is just like every other aspect of life…everything that is good can turn bad if held in excess... Good can turn bad if there isn’t a constant renewal and refreshing of all senses….especially that of Love in which I feel is our special sense that is made up of all of the other combinations... Love has a natural need to be dynamic…given…received…ever changing…ever flowing…ever growing…constantly renewed and reinvented... Stagnation of any or worse, all, of these are the catalyst that kills the spirit and passion for life and breeds with it physical and emotional pain.

Why does your heart physically hurt and you feel like you can’t breathe after Love is lost? I believe it is because of this build-up and over accumulation of Love that has nowhere to go anymore…no direction or purpose…left to bounce around aimlessly in the hole left in your soul...

I sincerely wish everyone Love and Happiness…whether you have it now or not…..don’t ever let it stagnate when you do have it…IT IS WORTH THE EFFORT!!

With much Love……Mesh

HAPPY DEEPAVALI TO ALL MY MOST VALUED READERS...

Yeah, before it gets too late to post these pics..I'd better do it now..nanti bangas..hehe

These are some of the pics I took, and some taken by Junior few other friends during the KE Star Studded Night which was held recently at New Pusakag Cafe....tingu ja la bah...bukan banyak pun 500 pics ja....

Hey..its a new day, new week, not really new actually, today's Tuesday..Been quite busy lately, with the new students still coming in..and squeezing them in my few classes..Assigning project papers, lectures, developing new subjects...I don't have all the time in the world to do everything..So, I'm doing it my own way, slow but well done...I'm not complaining though, I'm paid for this..and I'm still happy, indeed very happy for having my friends around all the time, and for my doggies..

I have not been writing like I used to..I don't know why, maybe, posting pics and putting few comments on are much easier than transcripting my thoughts into writing..and maybe, just maybe..I'm tired of my random thoughts...Hehehe...Nay'..couldn't be...Well, anyway, I'm still writing...my blog, my choice...Di ba? hehe...

Many things happened over the weekends, the KE Star Studded night was done and over with..and I guess, everyone had fun..Especially me...Wow, I've never thought that I could actually be so over friendly (ptuiiii) mingling with new friends, or with strangers...every unpleasant thoughts and feelings were totally ignored...making friends, and having fun was all that matter to me that night..and yeap..that was exactly what I did...

If you visit the O2C official blogsite...you would be able to see that, we are going to organize a halloween party...it's going to be on the 31st of October 2008, at 7.30 in TNGC...If anyone of you are interested to join us..(apart from the O2C members themselves) you are all welcome...we would only charge rm25 for drinks and food...and you are required to wear costume..it's COMPULSORY...those without costumes and still wanna join us, you have to pay rm35...So..Come and Let's have fun...

I was chatting with Gurangak, and was about to go to sleep when suddenly he sent me a link to youtube..was feeling a bit hesitant to check it out, but I did anyway...and HAHAHAHA..I ended up watching the whole series..Darn funny siut...You, Sabahan..if you haven't seen these yet..It really help, especially when you have so many things to do and so stressed up..take a break and enjoy these..Sketsa kampung2...I wonder who are these boys...haha

RAHSIA TERPENDAM

BOROS TOKOU

Nah SIngud

Kedai Makan

enjoy je la....