A slap on the face...WAKE UP
I’m having a really difficult time doing what I say I’m going to do... Not for others, I’m still relatively on track with that.. Not perfect, far from it, but better than I am with myself.. I never do what I promise myself..and that's a shame..
Me and myself, we’re always planning to improve things, set things right. We’re going to do meditate, exercise, write, read, file stuffs.. I have a long wistful list scribbled on my yellow pad.. I’ve even broken everything down into hourly pockets to make sure everything fits..
I write all of this down, I believe myself and then I walk away. I get distracted.. Someone needs this NOW, someone I love is having a nervous breakdown, there is always one of those.. And the day goes and at the end of it there is nothing.. Just my list.. I haven’t done one of the things, not one..
Over time I have learnt to trust myself less than my most capricious acquaintances... Never has anyone let me down as much as I, myself.. I have got, so I simply don’t believe in anything I say...
So I’m changing that. I’m making a spreadsheet. Now!!... It will have two headings under every day: 1. What I did not do and 2. What I did do.
That’s it....
Not what I should have done or what I promise to do. No judgment. Only observation...
I real slap on the face to make me stay wide awake...I’m going to ‘see’ what happens...
Me and myself, we’re always planning to improve things, set things right. We’re going to do meditate, exercise, write, read, file stuffs.. I have a long wistful list scribbled on my yellow pad.. I’ve even broken everything down into hourly pockets to make sure everything fits..
I write all of this down, I believe myself and then I walk away. I get distracted.. Someone needs this NOW, someone I love is having a nervous breakdown, there is always one of those.. And the day goes and at the end of it there is nothing.. Just my list.. I haven’t done one of the things, not one..
Over time I have learnt to trust myself less than my most capricious acquaintances... Never has anyone let me down as much as I, myself.. I have got, so I simply don’t believe in anything I say...
So I’m changing that. I’m making a spreadsheet. Now!!... It will have two headings under every day: 1. What I did not do and 2. What I did do.
That’s it....
Not what I should have done or what I promise to do. No judgment. Only observation...
I real slap on the face to make me stay wide awake...I’m going to ‘see’ what happens...
its all about you n you and you..................