Random Thoughts

it's a long and winding road that leads to the point of no return..those who walk slowly but steadfast will surely reach the end and get their rewards and be joyful..I wonder, in my course of life, what have I achieved so far..? Looking back all over the years, I think, I have gone through lots of things..some that made me laughed, and some that made me cried..But, I'm still pretty much the same person that I used to be..Not that I wanna be someone else, I'm comfortable with myself..But, it's just a small changes that I wish I could see in me..a betterment in life..

I've seen many things that I have never seen before, went to places that I've never been before and make friends to those who were strangers to me before..Yeah, I guess I'm living a normal human being life..Should be thankful enough for all these things..I realized, as I grow older, life demanded me to be more responsible, and that very thing, I have less commitment on..and always find myself failed to comply..I guess I'm only being responsible to those whom I care about so much and to those who pay my salary...Having said that, still..I'm not satisfy with my life..Well..again, I'm being only human, with endless needs and wants in life..

Haven't been back to my parent's for quite long..I guess its ok to just come by and meet them whenever they are around town..Go for lunch with them..even for a brief seconds..I guess by just calling them once in two days will make it up for them and they'd be happy..Well, I guessed wrong..They called me up, and asked me to go home..I always did...but only for a day trip..and that doesn't make them any happier..They want me to go home and spend time with them..This is what I'm looking for now..I'll make time for them..and I think, Its one of my responsibilities to make them folks happy..Eventhough, as a child, I'm used to be the last one..I'm not complaining..I grew up to be a happy man today..

Sometimes I see my life like an animated series of misery..I pretend that life is beautiful,and as if I'm walking on my own cloud 9..People think that my life is full of fun and I have nothing to worry about in life..Only God knows how..and only God understands why..He understands my deepest parts more than I know myself..I thank God for giving me life...I don't like people to look at me as if I'm indeed in need of help and sympathy..And don't want people to know how weak and fragile I am emotionally..But, sometimes..I cannot fake it..it shows...I only share my life stories with friends, close friends and love ones..but never to my family..I think, It is much easier and I could actually be more expressive to my friends than to any of my family members..

Now that you know..doesn't mean, you can judge me..Coz I don't care about what you have to tell me about my life..I live and rule my own life..I follow orders whenever I feel like it and tend to forget those who doesn't have significant impact to my life..I'm sorry..But YOU, who have special place in my heart, I put you on top of my any significant others...For as long as you want me to..and I'm happy just to be with YOU.......

Happiness refers to the emotion, mood and state of happiness...it's like a butterfly, which, when pursued is always just beyond your reach, but when, if you only sit down will alight upon you...I'm happy and that's all I wanna say...There's nothing new in my life, but I thank God..my life has been poured with happiness I never thought I could ever felt..The happiness of being loved and to love someone...

The feeling is grandeur and everlasting..and I couldn't stop loving this person..I know, it's not going to be easy between us, for whatever reason..only God knows why..Well, nothing's wrong with it anyway..It's only fair that I should know, where everything is leading to...

I really need to tell you that I'm so thankful that I have known you..If only I have known you earlier, I wouldn't have to waste my time seeking for love from another person...and I wouldn't be hurt, coz I know, you wouldn't do that...they say, when you are in love, everything else is not as important to you anymore..I thought that they were only lying...but, its true..since I met you..you are the only one who matters to me..I'm sorry for saying this..But,I'm just a selfish bastard who love you so much..whether its right or wrong..and no one else need to know and understand..

I need to go now, we'll talk about this some other time..for the time being, just leave it as it is...hehehe...

I'm dedicating this to my special someone, who ever you are, you know that you are special to me in many ways..and you are the reason of all this adrenalin rush..Not that there's anything wrong with it...I kinda like it...

Walk with me in acceptance, judging me not, questioning nothing about the wheres and whys and whatevers of my occupation of similar space and time as those recognized by the masses for great accomplishments and gifts of self.

Walk with me in amazment that we are so blessed to have this opportunity to be together...And I shall walk with you in awe... and you know, I only want nothing but this...

Salamat dahil ikaw na sa piling ko.......buhay ko para sa iyo...

I've just adopted a new puppy last week, a German Rottweiler (A mixed of German Shepherd and Rottweiler)...Well, Sisco is the new pup..6 weeks old, very brave and very adorable..here are some pics of him...hehehe

School has just started so I'm pretty bummed out.. And you know what that means..? Do the teaching! Classes + updating my blog frequently = rare. So that means that if the contents are the same for like some days, a month...a few month...maybe...a year? (doubt it) PLEASE don't get angry at me for I have a torturous thing called WORK and I'm sure all you people have it and I'm thankful, I'm not the only one being tortured. The last entry is still up so stop freaking out because it may just be there for quite a while. hehehe..